Healing

I spent a long time online this morning looking for a new blogger template to fit what has been on my heart and mind recently. I think the healing one fits, though not 100%. I do need to spend more time healing. Healing my relationship with God, and getting it to where He deserves it to be. I need to push myself, and challenge myself in my relationship with God. I don't want to just go through the motions. I want to strive more to become closer to God. Like Lauren said in bible study a couple weeks ago, after we become Christians, we learn about God in the new testament, and as we want to further our relationship with Him, and learn more about Him, we learn about His past, and why He sent Jesus to earth. We learn about why He made all the laws He did. Its not a relationship I can sit back and let someone else do the work.

I need to make more effort to know Him, the way He knows me. He's blessed me so much, and I want so much to know why.

I need more healing in my life, and in my past. More forgiveness and more understanding for the future. God has the power to help me. So why not take Him up on his offer? Whatever life throws at me, its not nearly as hard as the death Jesus waged on the Cross for me. No matter what the devil puts in front of me, I can take it on, and I can overcome him, because I have my God on my side, lifting me up, holding me, and strengthening me, even when I don't feel strengthened.

I want so much to become a bigger part of our church, to throw myself into the mix more, and get to know more people. I want so much to have spiritual mentors that I can talk to about what I'm struggling with, and have them pray with me. I want so much to have someone to pray for, to lift up in times of need, and to strengthen. And I want so much for Jim to have that too, but he has to do it in his own time, I don't want to force him to do something he's not ready for. We all know Jim likes to take his time making decisions ;)