Blogging

I am once again, a bad bad blogger. I keep meaning to sit down, and write, but I just haven't.

Part of me is scared to put what is going on in my mind and heart online, and part of me is just in this time of reflection, and waiting to see what God has on hold for the future.

I've been out of work since September 30th, its been almost 5 months. I had surgery at the end of November to see if they could figure out what the problem is with my hand. They found scar tissue on my radial nerve, and a lot of swelling. Since surgery my hand hasn't gotten any better. I do have days where it doesn't hurt as bad as others, but it always hurts. Its really frustrating and hard to know that I may never be pain free. I've had the tendinitis in my wrist for 10 years, but it has only gotten worse over the past four years, where I've had 3 surgeries.

I've struggled with my employer to get temporary disability. about 4 weeks ago I finally got a check, but the check was only for the first 5 weeks. I've submitted the paperwork they needed, but still haven't received another check. I've also filed paperwork with permanent disability. Since everything I do hurts my arm, I need an alternative to having to work in order to have some kind of income.

I hope this afternoon or tomorrow to get some more posts up about the fun things I've been doing.

Planning amanda's wedding has been a blast, she's getting married the day before Jims and my one year anniversary. I couldn't be happier for her and Steve if I tried. They're a wonderful couple. Its great to see Amanda SO happy.

Hanging out with some new friends. I made some great new friends from the musical, and we have been spending a lot of time together. They're a great group. and I'm so lucky to have them in my life now, I can't wait to get to know them better!

The last couple of weeks

I know, I've been a bad blogger again. Sorry about that. I think most of you are friends with me on facebook, and so you know what's been going on.

I had a cortisone shot September 30th, which has basically made my arm useless and in an extraordinary amount of pain since. It hasn't really been much fun for me to sit home, and not be earning any income. I want to go back to work, and hang out with my work girls everyday. Especially now that my arm is feeling somewhat better. But, I know that wouldn't be a good option for me yet. So, I'm waiting, and trying to be patient, and let my arm heal before I start using it too much again. I'm probably going to need surgery again, I'll find out when I go back November 16th, and we'll go from there.

Can you pray for me?

More specifically, pray for two potential situations.

The first option being when I go to the doctors on Nov 16th, that they're able to schedule surgery right away, so my arm is healed by the Christmas musical. That's right folks. I'm in a Musical. The lead role at that! I'm SUPER excited for this opportunity, but also very nervous with my arm being what it is right now.

And the second option being that when I go back, if they can't schedule my surgery right away I can schedule it for the week of or after Christmas (after the musical) so that I can still act in the musical without my arm being *as* much of a problem for the performance. I really want this role, I am so honored to have been chosen for it, and I think it will be a wonderful memory of my first year of marriage with Jim. :0) He's in it too!! He'll be singing all the songs, and have a couple non-speaking roles. :0)

I don't know what God has in store for me, I'm trying to take it one day at a time, but anyone who knows me, knows I'm not good at being patient. But, I know God knows what is best for me. and with Him by my side I can conquer all.

Also, If your reading this, and wanna come over for lunch, or walk around the mall with me one day, that'd be awesome. I hate being trapped at home, and I really miss my girls at work, and being surrounded by people all day long. We don't have money to spend, so I can't go to lunch or anything, but I'd love to hang out, or do a picnic lunch! :)