not feeling it today...

I have been thinking all morning about weather or not I would participate in Gratituesday this week. I don't really feel very thankful this morning. So I guess, it makes sense to think more about what I DO have to be thankful for, and focus on those things.

During this weeks sermon Chris gave us this quote "Gratitude is the mother of all virtues" ~G.K. Chesterton~

I've been thinking about it a lot, and in the mess that is my head at the moment, find things to be thankful for, so here we go.

I am thankful for a Savior who loved me so much He gave me life.

I am thankful for friends and family who are so loving and caring, despite my downfalls.

I am thankful for an extra close family when I need them, they're always here for me.

Ephesians 5:20
always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

There are things, that by this verse I should be thankful for, but at the moment, I'm not.

I'm not thankful for a mother who has turned my life upside down more times than I can count, for the pain she has left on my heart that still hurts so deeply so often. I'm not thankful for the lack of understanding on my part. I don't understand why I don't have a mother who loves me and cherishes me as much as Amanda, and my other friends mothers love her. I don't understand why my life is so filled with pain, that no one can really comprehend. Pain that I wouldn't bestow on my worst enemy.

Somehow, I need to find a way to be thankful for these things, God calls us to be thankful in all things.

gratituesday

My new friend Sara is a part of this every week, and I love reading her entries every Tuesday, so I thought I'd get in on the fun this week.



I am so thankful for my incredible husband, and all that he brings to my life. Two months ago we pledged our lives to each other, and we're finally settling into that new life. Jim is an incredible man, and I am looking forward to spending the rest of my life with him. I love watching him grow in his relationship with God, and to see the light in his eyes when he makes a connection to something said in Church. It is my prayer that we continue to grow in God together.



I am thankful for the friends who have supported me these past couple of months. It was a much harder transition than I expected, but one that I wouldn't give up for anything, I learned a lot about myself, some things I'm changing, but some that are incredible.


Most of all I am thankful for my new church, Anchor Christian church and all that it has brought into my life. My new friends at church have encouraged me in my walk with God more than anyone else, and shown me Christ's love in so many ways.