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Tuesday, August 18, 2009

not feeling it today...

I have been thinking all morning about weather or not I would participate in Gratituesday this week. I don't really feel very thankful this morning. So I guess, it makes sense to think more about what I DO have to be thankful for, and focus on those things.

During this weeks sermon Chris gave us this quote "Gratitude is the mother of all virtues" ~G.K. Chesterton~

I've been thinking about it a lot, and in the mess that is my head at the moment, find things to be thankful for, so here we go.

I am thankful for a Savior who loved me so much He gave me life.

I am thankful for friends and family who are so loving and caring, despite my downfalls.

I am thankful for an extra close family when I need them, they're always here for me.

Ephesians 5:20
always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

There are things, that by this verse I should be thankful for, but at the moment, I'm not.

I'm not thankful for a mother who has turned my life upside down more times than I can count, for the pain she has left on my heart that still hurts so deeply so often. I'm not thankful for the lack of understanding on my part. I don't understand why I don't have a mother who loves me and cherishes me as much as Amanda, and my other friends mothers love her. I don't understand why my life is so filled with pain, that no one can really comprehend. Pain that I wouldn't bestow on my worst enemy.

Somehow, I need to find a way to be thankful for these things, God calls us to be thankful in all things.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm not sure we are supposed to be thankful that bad things happen, but more like we should be thankful despite the bad things. It’s "thankful in all things" not "thankful because of all things." Kind like, the bad things shouldn’t steal our joy. I’m not sure God is glad your mom has been so hurtful to you. I’m pretty sure He’s upset that that happened. But He doesn’t want you allow it to destroy you. Kinda like you said, you have a great dad, grandma, siblings, etc. Your mom can’t touch that. You can be thankful for them despite what she did. (In some ways, I wonder if you appreciate them more because of your mom?) Just a thought. =)
Anyway, always thankful can’t mean always happy cause Jesus cried. If it’s ok for him to do it, I assume it’s ok for us to do it too. ;)
-Lauren

SnoWhite said...

There are days I don't feel like being thankful for certain circumstances, but Lauren is right -- it's to have a heart of thankfulness in all things. Focusing on the blessings is one way of doing that.

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