My pastor said something in service yesterday that really hit me. He asked if the person we are at church on Sunday is the same person we are at work, at school, with our friends, family etc.
It really hit me pretty hard. I'm pretty much the same person everywhere, except at work. I get annoyed a lot easier. I get mad at people for taking advantage of the free service they get through our company. I get really upset when they get angry and start yelling at me because the $350 Equipment they're getting for FREE is taking too long to get there. I have tried to put myself in their shoes, but it doesn't really help. I find myself disconnecting the call and getting mad at the person for their attitude with me. I get annoyed with them being so greedy. About them not caring how their yelling makes me feel.
So today, I've made an effort not to get upset with a customer, not to let myself get to that point of wanting to throw some colorful words at them. I never should have allowed this to become a habit. I should have stopped myself before it got this far. I always felt guilty after I hung up with each customer. Now I realize what an idiot I was being. And I'm going to work on Fixing it.
I'm so thankful for finding a church home for God reaching out to me, for touching my heart and Jim's. Its really incredible to watch the growth in his life. Its so encouraging. And really amazing to be in the midst of. To see the smile on his face when he says things. To see the light bulb go on when he realizes something I've been telling him is true. I'm so glad I waited and stuck this out, and didn't walk away, like I so many times wanted to. It would have been easier.
Amanda- Thank you so much for convicting me, for telling me exactly what you thought, and for not sugar coating me. Your conviction gave me the strength to do this. Its awesome to have a friend who cares SO much about me, that you won't let me turn around and walk away. Thank you for keeping me on the path. helping me realize what my goal in this is, and the encouragement to keep following it!
So here I go, on a new journey towards God, walking down this path that I walked away from for so long. with a new sense of encouragement. I'm here to be a witness to him. to grow in my relationship with God, to reach others for him. So here I go out into the world, hopefully to reach some others for him. And to make them want the love I have for my savior.
