Some things...

Well, here I am, not blogging again.

There's so much inside my head and my heart that I don't really even know where to begin, or what to tell you guys. I guess that's my excuse for not blogging. I've always been VERY open about my emotions. But right now, I'm realizing that being so open isn't always a good thing.


I guess the biggest thing being that I HATE Not working. I didn't mind it at first, I kept myself busy, and then I got into a lull where I was sitting home alone everyday, thinking about all the things that have changed since my cortizone shot September 30th. Thinking about our ever dwindling emergency fund, and about all the things we've had to give up. Instead, I should be extraordinarily grateful that we even had an emergency fund, I'm willing to bet most people our age don't have one. Things aren't *that* bad, they could be worse, our bills are paid, and we have a wonderful home. But I hate change, with a passion. I really miss date nights with my husband, walking arm in arm through the mall, going to furniture stores and talking about how we want to decorate our home. Those things are just too depressing knowing we can't afford it, and won't be able to for a while.

I've got a lot of really incredible friends and family members who have taken me out to multiple lunches since I've been off of work, and for that I am forever grateful. Its helped me SO much to get out of the house and spend time with you guys, and not sit at home by myself. I don't do well alone, I'm far too social for alone.

There are so many other things, extraordinarily personal things that I don't really feel comfortable sharing here. Things that have happened in our lives that have brought us so much heartache, and a lot of tears as of late.

But we're trucking through. And we've grown so much closer over the last 13 weeks. I know we can make it through anything, because we have each other and God.

Please, just pray for us, for strength, understanding and peace.

<3