Challenges

God is so incredible. I'm in awe of what he has been doing in my life. He keeps challenging me to change things that I do that aren't Godly. I've been trying to trust him, and know that he has my best interests in heart, and not resist what he is challenging me to do, he wins in the end anyways. So far, he has told me to stop watching trashy shows, so I took days of our lives off the DVR. I miss the show sometimes, but I know God has something better in store for me. I also got a subscription to Cosmopolitan a few months ago, and when I received my last issue, and I felt God telling me to throw it out, without even thinking it went straight into the trash can. Its so incredible to listen to God, and see what he does in my life through my obedience.

Now he is challenging me in a much harder way. I'm not sure how to change what I've been doing, but I know through prayer, and thought, I can conquer this too. He is so faithful and incredible. So pray for me in this. I could use the strength!

He's done so many things for me, and I know that even when I wasn't following him during and following my relationship with Craig. He was still holding me, and leading me, even though I had told him I wanted nothing to do with him. He was still there, with his hand in my life, and holding my hand, even though I continued to try to pull away, thinking I could stand on my own. I can't stand without God. I know that now. I'm so glad for my Christian friends, and for the Christian blogs I have been reading that give me the strength to continue on this Godly path, knowing how much I need him to be part of me.