Regrets

I used to live my life in such a way that I wouldn't allow myself to have regrets. A few years ago, I let that slip away, and now I have a couple of regrets, that won't get out of my head.

so, I'll write them down here, and then reread this in a year and laugh at myself telling myself how ridiculously stupid I am.

I regret Jim's proposal not being romantic. I was with him when he bought my ring, and then we went to the canal and he proposed. I knew he wanted to marry me, I should have just let him take his time and let it happen on his time, not my own. Every girl wants a romantic proposal, and me, being impatient, I didn't let him do it on his time schedule, and I still get really mad at myself for doing that.

I regret not fighting more, to make my wedding MINE. And not someone else's. There were so many things that I wanted for our wedding that we didn't get. So many things that we backed down on and shouldn't have. I should have fought for the wedding of my dreams, instead, now I look back on my wedding day with bitterness, and hurt.

Don't get me wrong, the day was incredible, and I got to marry the man of my dreams. I wouldn't take anything back about that. But most of it wasn't me. It was me, appeasing someone else. and not getting the wedding of my dreams.

If only I could do it all over again, if only there was a way to not regret the two biggest events in my life. I will make up the mistakes I made with those two things, by trying extra hard to be the best wife I can be. Jim is an incredible man, and I am one lucky lady. Seriously I couldn't any better than him :0)