Reflections

Its ADD posting time.... Here are some thoughts on my mind today.


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After the events of Saturday(see post below if you haven't yet) I realize how amazing so many of the people in my life are. Those wonderful people balance out the others who aren't so great.

I am so blessed to have the father, grandmother, siblings, niece and nephews that I have. You are all incredible.

My friends- new and old. Thank you for praying for me in that moment. I could definitely feel your prayers working, and felt a lot better.

I hate what I'm doing right now. I'm praying for God to open new doors and give me new opportunities. Ones that will honor and glorify His name.

I don't know where I'm going to school in three weeks. I haven't yet applied, Jim and I are talking about my options, and what we think would be best for our budget, and for our future.

Its not an easy decision to make. Deciding your future. I want to do what is best for me, Jim, our future children, and mostly our Incredible God!

I am stronger than I think, especially in moments like Saturday night. I am so proud of the way I handled it, and thankful for Damita showing me how I could have handled it better, for future reference. :)

I don't know whats next, or where I'm going from here. But I know that God has a plan, and I'm learning to be ok with that. God knows my heart, and He knows whats best. So, as much as I'd like to take control of it, I feel like I need to sit back and let Him do his will in my life. Because he DOES have a plan, even though I don't know what it is yet.

This weekend is going to be crazy busy, but so much fun!

Friday:
Work meeting 1-330
Photo shoot at 4
Work dinner at 6 with my 2 favorites coming :D

Saturday:
Working at a workshop

Sunday:
Church
Photo shoot at 2
Photo shoot at 3
photo shoot at 4

Unfortunately, they're unpaid shoots, but shoots none the less. I decided I'm gonna work on my skill level a little more, and get better at what I love. An try not to get so frustrated that I want to throw my camera away and quit.

Today

I took a mental health day off of life today. I was not feeling well at all this morning, and after some tears, some prayer and a shower, I decided I needed to take a break. So, I headed to my favorite place in the world. Just me, my music and my camera. It was a wonderful, MUCH needed day off. Don't worry Michael - You and me, Saturday, Char Coal Corral :-D